1. I’d like to try blogging again, esp about books I’m reading. I found it super helpful to me (if not always interesting to anyone else) to try to capture my thoughts in a coherent manner and save them for some sort of posterity. Helps me feel like I’m engaging them in a deeper way.
2. Just because God called you to something doesn’t mean you will succeed. That’s been the lesson for the last 2 years, and it’s a doozy. Sit with it a while and it will kick your ass.
3. I’ve been thinking about how I used to re-read books A LOT. It was like I thought I’d end up living in OZ if I could just read the books enough times. I don’t tend to re-read now, but I do re-listen to sermons a lot. Somewhat a similar feel – if I could just hear it enough, maybe I’d really live it. Not that I wasn’t trying to, but I think hearing it again and again might burn it deep in my soul so it would never leave. And it IS somewhat true – in tough times, the familiar voices will speak in my head familiar words I need to hear.
And I’ve been thinking about books I’ve read in the last 2 years that I wish had stuck with me deeper. And I was feeling really bad about it, like I had failed at reading them the first time. And then it came to me — I should re-read them! (Brilliant I know). I’ll still read new stuff too, but I’m giving myself permission this year to re-read over and over & let it all just sink in. And lucky for you dear reader, I haven’t talked about them here, so if & when I write about them here, they will still be NEW to YOU! So here’s my list of what I’d like to re-read:
- The God Who Loves You: Love Divine, All Loves Excelling by Peter Kreeft
- Peace Like a River by Leif Enger
- Gilead by Marilynne Robinson
- Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
- Written in Tears by Luke Veldt
- Acedia & Me: A Marriage, Monks, and a Writer’s Life by Kathleen Norris
As for the Bible — beginning of January everyone’s posting their read-thru-the-Bible-in-a-year plans, and I just find them so overwhelming. How much would I really retain doing that? I feel like the place I’m in now is all about waiting & being, and that just feels like so much doing & hurry & stress. Plus, I’ve already done that, so I don’t feel the need to do it again right now.
What I am coming back to over & over again is Isaiah. Whenever someone (one person) has a verse they are praying for me, it is usually (always) from Isaiah. And he was a dude well acquainted with waiting. So I’ll be reading & re-reading Isaiah this year, as many times as I happen to get thru it.